Rant entry for 5/4/2003 --- My lover left me cuz i'm POZ (founder) and work too hard on my websites

I am so sad, my girlfriend left me because I neglected her too much. See I am the founder of many HIV/AIDS support and info websites and I dedicated my last 3 years to them. We started dating over 2 years ago. Last two years I pushed her away to work on my sites, we broke up on April 16th (2003) as she said I had blown my last chance (I never knew it was my last chance). Once she left me, I realized just how f**kin much I loved her. I am still devistated, I have even been shutting down parts of my websites so I can start to have some me time. Now I cannot afford rent here without her living here, so I don't know where I will move too this coming June. My life has been temporialy ruined right now, my sites will all be shut down end of this May as I will have no home (I am assuming) to set up my web server and chat server. I feel really bad as I have hundreds of HIV+ members relying on my support chats and sites. I feel like I led everyone on. I feel mad somewhat at my sites, if I would not have spent so much time on them, I may still be with Mira. Once sites are all back to normal, they will all be dedicated to Mira. DaveyBoy (founder of HIV/AIDS Network) BACK